A Short Story with a BIG Message

A few years ago, when I started working for a charity that provided additional support needs playschemes, I was given a copy of this poem during training and it really spoke to me.

As parents, when we are expecting a baby we have a set of expectations and an idyll that we envisage of the future. Sometimes when the baby is born, or some time after, parents realise that the life they envisaged, their idyll, is not quite possible- due to disability or the discovery of ADHD or ASD slightly later- many parents mourn the loss of the child they thought they would have and the journey they thought they would take.

It is important to remember though, that children are born the way they are and that is wonderful and should be celebrated in itself. Mourning the loss of a fantasy child when there is a real child in front of you is not fair. This short story sums it up brilliantly.

“Welcome to Holland”

By Emily Perl Kingsley, 1987.

I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability – to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It’s like this……

When you’re going to have a baby, it’s like planning a fabulous vacation trip – to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It’s all very exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, “Welcome to Holland.”

“Holland?!?” you say. “What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I’m supposed to be in Italy. All my life I’ve dreamed of going to Italy.”

But there’s been a change in the flight plan. They’ve landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is that they haven’t taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It’s just a different place.

So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.

It’s just a different place. It’s slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you’ve been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around…. and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills….and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy… and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”

And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away…because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss. But…if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things … about Holland.

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